Walking the Path

Well it’s the last day of 2008 and I’m in a position I didn’t think I’d be in a year ago. To be honest I’m not too happy about it  – I am just realizing now how much I define myself by my job. I’m getting a little bored and depressed. Trying to read more and do some more writing in between my job hunting, but I am still getting frustrated sometimes (I feel pretty cut off from the world staying at home during the daytime). Usually that means I lose my temper when Roger does something naughty and I know I shouldn’t.

I know I shouldn’t really get frustrated either. I’ve only been off two weeks and I am not in finance troubles. I’ve got money saved up and there are opportunities that I am waiting to hear back on. Something will come through for me. But I guess I am becoming a bit too reflective today. I still think of myself a year ago when I didn’t really have a care in the world expect trying to get Winnie a visa to visit Canada — and we managed that, so I’ll manage this too. It just may take a while.

I need to go out tonight I really do. Not just the fact that it’s New Year’s Eve. I need forget about my frustrations for awhile and just enjoy myself. So I’ve decided to head out to tonight’s Cold Fairyland concert at the Melting Pot on Hengshan Lu.  

The concert is free but I’m not going for that reason. I really enjoy the band and own all their albums. I want to do something different this year. Something a bit different than going to a drinking fest at a hotel or karoake (which really ends up being the same thing). There won’t be many people there that I know. But that’s okay I just want to enjoy myself and forget my troubles for a few hours. 

Tomorrow is the start of a three-day national holiday here in China, so I plan to take tomorrow off from my job hunting anyway and just enjoy the day and spend a lot of time with Joseph Boyden’s Three Day Road. 

If you’re looking for a bit cheerier reflection on 2008 check out this great post from Biscuit.

Let’s hope for a better 2009.

J.